the ugly duckling story

I have everything a modern woman is supposed to dream of having - a car, a home, a yet-to-be-successful career, tonnes of awesome friends and A FAMILY - yet like so many others, I found myself lost, confused, and searching for what I really wanted in life. Life isn't perfect though. I have bills and debts to pay. A not-so-luminous-anymore skin condition. And a quest for self-discovery.


I've been single and dateless for almost a year. Not that it doesnt bugging me. It does. Like all the time! People say how perfectionist I am. Hear me now. Nope! I dont need someone perfect. All I ever need is someone doing nothing and yet keeps me falling. Who make his move first. Who can endure all the pain to be with me. WHO HAS MORE BALLS THAN I DO. Sound perfectionist? Naah! I hope that one day, If ever, I will meet him and know that he is the one. I just know.


I really wanted to discover the inner peace and balance of true love in the heart. Therefore, I'm stepping out of my comfort zone, risking everything to change my life, embarking on a journey to find my own self. For a start, I am restructuring my financial plan. I'd set my brain not to buy the unimportant thing. Its hard! I know. Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.


I am trying my luck to be a tuition teacher. Its for the orphanage. Doing it for free. Its still in an early talk. But I hope I can give the world a better place for them. It started out from following my mother to her charity event. N it strucked upon my head, who really cares for them? Their needs? Their education? Their life? It bits me in the heart, stings me in the eye. I've gotta do something. Give something.


Travelling round the world has always been my dream. If there is a job named fully paid salary traveller. I'd go for it! Unluckily, it's only in my dream. Money is everything. Better save up some money! Since this year I've been to genting. Then nextyear i'll be going for Sabah. Im diving yaww! My wishlist will come true. Really hope that I could make it for the plan. Its a all-girls-no-men-allowed vacation. Play hard! Pray hard! I've been longing to go to some place where the grass is always greener. Where else? Paddy field laaaa! Please someone take me there!


To all, I sincerely wanted to express my love ; my friends, my family! I LOVE YOU!

Eat. Pray. Love


lotsa love. xoxo


-pujah-