the ugly duckling story

I have everything a modern woman is supposed to dream of having - a car, a home, a yet-to-be-successful career, tonnes of awesome friends and A FAMILY - yet like so many others, I found myself lost, confused, and searching for what I really wanted in life. Life isn't perfect though. I have bills and debts to pay. A not-so-luminous-anymore skin condition. And a quest for self-discovery.


I've been single and dateless for almost a year. Not that it doesnt bugging me. It does. Like all the time! People say how perfectionist I am. Hear me now. Nope! I dont need someone perfect. All I ever need is someone doing nothing and yet keeps me falling. Who make his move first. Who can endure all the pain to be with me. WHO HAS MORE BALLS THAN I DO. Sound perfectionist? Naah! I hope that one day, If ever, I will meet him and know that he is the one. I just know.


I really wanted to discover the inner peace and balance of true love in the heart. Therefore, I'm stepping out of my comfort zone, risking everything to change my life, embarking on a journey to find my own self. For a start, I am restructuring my financial plan. I'd set my brain not to buy the unimportant thing. Its hard! I know. Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.


I am trying my luck to be a tuition teacher. Its for the orphanage. Doing it for free. Its still in an early talk. But I hope I can give the world a better place for them. It started out from following my mother to her charity event. N it strucked upon my head, who really cares for them? Their needs? Their education? Their life? It bits me in the heart, stings me in the eye. I've gotta do something. Give something.


Travelling round the world has always been my dream. If there is a job named fully paid salary traveller. I'd go for it! Unluckily, it's only in my dream. Money is everything. Better save up some money! Since this year I've been to genting. Then nextyear i'll be going for Sabah. Im diving yaww! My wishlist will come true. Really hope that I could make it for the plan. Its a all-girls-no-men-allowed vacation. Play hard! Pray hard! I've been longing to go to some place where the grass is always greener. Where else? Paddy field laaaa! Please someone take me there!


To all, I sincerely wanted to express my love ; my friends, my family! I LOVE YOU!

Eat. Pray. Love


lotsa love. xoxo


-pujah-

Reason for invading Afghanistan:

“The most important thing is for us to find Osama bin Laden. It is our number one priority and we will not rest until we find him.” — George W. Bush, Washington, D.C., Sept. 13, 2001

And then..

“I don’t know where bin Laden is. I have no idea and really don’t care. It’s not that important. It’s not our priority.” — George W. Bush, Washington, D.C., March 13, 2002

So just 6 months after 9/11, the world’s most dangerous man is not important anymore. He does not just become unimportant.

70,000+ deaths.

Reason for invading Iraq:

“We found the weapons of mass destruction. We found biological laboratories … And we’ll find more weapons as time goes on. But for those who say we haven’t found the banned manufacturing devices or banned weapons, they’re wrong, we found them.” — George W. Bush, Washington, D.C., May 30, 2003

And then..

“Those weapons of mass destruction have got to be somewhere!” — George W. Bush, joking about his administration’s failure to find WMDs in Iraq as he narrated a comic slideshow during the Radio & TV Correspondents’ Association dinner, Washington, D.C., March 24, 2004

So that was one big fat lie then.

130,000+ deaths.

Two pointless wars based on absolute lies and over 200,000 people dead as a result.

Day 5 : Six things that you wish you had never done.


1. tidak membawa basikal dgn ganasnye waktu kecil..kalo tak tadek la parut kat kepala lutut

2. tidak ingkar untuk mencabut gigi sewaktu kecil kecil..kalo tak tadek la gigi berterabur macam skang ni

3. tidak mudah jatuh cinta monyet beruk babun dan sebagainya..kalo tak tadek la kene sumpahan cinta

4. tidak menjadi seorang yg terlampau ego, kuat merajuk, kuat memerintah dan sebagainya..kalo tak tadek la jadi seorang lady boss macam skang ni

5. tidak menjadi seorang yg terlampau kuat enjoy..kalo tak tadekla idop asek nak ronggeng jek

6. tidak menjadi seorang yg tadek ketenangan diri..kalo tak tadekla rase idop ni asek incomplete jek..


so...

THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD I WOULD NOT REGRET FOR..FOR EVERY ACTIONS TAKEN BY ME WERE MY OWN RESPONSIBILITY! I SHALL BEAR ALL THE CONSEQUENCES AND FACE IT AS THE WAY IT IS.


BYE

Day 4 : Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. knape duet asek tak cukop?

2. bile anak sedare i nak kua?

3. knape bonus sikit jek? duet raya pon kne cut off..lari bajet

4. dah tak sabar nk pakai baju raya..haha

5. knape esok kne keje lagi? aaaaaaaaaaa!!!

6. tak sabar nak balik raya bakar lemang, masak dodol, buat rendang, masak ketupat! eventhough i do not consume all those high colestrol food. ahahah

7. raya kali ni cam tak bes jek sebab tak de boipren. TAKPE! next year saya akan pastikan saya akan mempunyai FUTURE HUSBAND utk raya tahun depan! wahahaha!

bye

Day 2 : Nine things about yourself.


uno. baru je bagi duet raya kepada adik adik sepupu semalam. perasaan memberi duet raya sama seperti perasaan sudah bersedia untuk berkahwin. ho ho ho.


dos. mempunyai bilangan jerawat yang tidak termampu dibilang dek jari. mungkin hormon perempuan baru datang. waktu zaman remaja tadek plak jerawat tu nak datang. dah tua tua ni baru nak timbul. selain itu, aku juga baru mengerti ape itu kesakitan period cramp. sakit ya ampun! so betul lah kata mama, hormon perempuan ku baru nak aktif. cit!


tres. merasakan bahawa diri ini sudah dewasa. sudah hampir setahun bergelar pekerja. sudah hampir setahun membayar duet kereta sendiri. sudah hampir setahun memberi duet bulanan kepada ibu bapa. sudah hampir setahun belajar bertanggungjawab terhadap diri sendiri.


cuatro. jika anda bermain kutu dalam jumlah duet yang besar dan bilangan peserta kutu yang banyak, jangan jadi peserta yang pertama. singkirkan jauh jauh perangai anda yang gila nak shopping megasale raya di butik zara mng dan segala bagai. SINGKIRKAN! JIKA TIDAK ANDA AKAN MENYESAL! haru biru aku nak membayor duet kutu time turn org laen! uwaaaa!


cinco. mempunyai masalah split personality. pada satu masa boleh menjadi seorang mak tiri yang super garang super fierce! tapi pada satu masa pula boleh menjadi seorang yang kuat merengek dan kuat merajuk. i dont even get it with myself!


seis. seorang yang super ego. mempunyai masalah mahu menang dalam segala gala hal. kalau bergaduh pula sangat sukar utk mengaku silap dan meminta maaf.


tujuh. *dah taktau spanish dah* skang ni aku tak pose. hahahaha!


lapan. aku dah tadek idea nak tulis ape.


sembilan. oh sebelum mengakhiri coretan. saya ingin mengucapkan SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN !!!

Day 1 : Ten things you want to say to ten different people.

1. lady gaga..u r a freak..i hate ALL OF YOUR VC..half naked women+sex manipulation=rubbish VC!! plus u r ugly..but your talent isnt!


2. muben: watched he's just not that into you..n i guess this time you r right! totally! semua wanita dan lelaki dipersilakan menonton cerita ini..it's about relationship..yg konon konon hati batu tu sile lah jugak tgk..sesuai utk para hati bunga dan hati batu..trust me! u will think of your very own relationship status once u watched the movie..it's like a love guru for me!


3. nenek n atok: nexwik pas keje ijah balik! first time nak bagi duet raya kat adik adik sepupu..nenek n atok pon dapat jugak tau! hek hek!


4. din beramboi! balik la cepat!!!


5. ria, zaireen n nad..bile nak shopping zleqha n girlish talk? shahirawati tamao join ke?


6. rashdan n hanif: kak ijah bagi duet raya nnt jgn byk complain..terima dgn redha jek! huh! byk cekadak kang aku pang sekor sekor


7. akira toriyama! tenkyu for your dragon ball comics...i lob u lah! ur comics inspires me in so many way!


8. badrul afrizal: sori sebab aku selalu lupe bawak henset pegi keje..haha!


9. along! ijah nak duet raya! i dont care! i want 10 ringget from you! plus i have been window shopping for baju baby n stroller for my anak sedare..mommy cant wait to see u!!


10. i am sorry for being such a sulker. selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin. u know who u r.



esok pulak day 2...tungguuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!