the ugly duckling story

assalamualaikum.

2010 taught me a lot of things. lets review 'em

1. aku stil tak bejaye manage duet gaji dgn baek. ye aku ade duet simpanan asb n tabung aji. tp asal pg kl je kuarkan duet utk shopping. vungux!

face this. bulan 12 ni aku da pegi singapore. kl trip 2 kali. n kelantan trip. bejoli naek atv je pakai duet gak. spent almost 3 k. gaji baru brape je bai? las las kua duet simpanan. aaaaa! mane taknye. asal nampak je rembat. nampak je rembat, wattakuan!! seryes takleh kontrol nafsu shopping. org kate gaji besar. no. gaji aku tak besar. selera aku besar. hahaha

so aku telah memotong lagi gaji untuk tambahkan lagi duet simpanan start from gaji bulan ni! amek ko! ikat perut la aku!


2.my career is getting smooth. my bos recognize my talent. i love my job. but sometimes when i dont get wat i want. i'll tend to mengamok. menanges. super hate that. sede gak sbb kene belaja mende yg tak paham. welding la. ASME code la. Petronas spec la. API la. AWS la. macam macam code. tapi papepon kne blaja.

recipe menjadi sorang engineer oil n gas yg bejaye. code. communication. firm. english. english. aaaand english! seryes tak tipu.

this year projek kurang masuk. economy was quite bad. nevertheless project pumps in banyak next year. SOGT. KPOC. TAPIS. a few to names. yg tu kire mega n im in the porject also. banyaaaak kne blaja neh. sobs


3. year '10 teaches me a lot on friendship. FRIENDSHIP. yah with capital. i love them loads. most of them are starting their career. good luck to them all. with their absence, a hole in the heart they've left me with. seryes. i am all by myself. i easily get bored. i easily get angry. my life is just not the same anymore. sobs. sometimes i do think to move somewhere else. u know...be independent. i havent get out from the house except for my matriculation time. but i am juz comfortable enough living here in kuantan. takpe takpe. bosan bosan aku pg melawat korang eh. get ready je laaaa! hahahaha


4. dont ever fall for your bestfriend. even a slightest remote feeling. dont! just dont! things wont ever be the same. i am now in a middle of a situation where everything are awefully dumbstruck, perplexed and incredulous. sometimes i think i cant hold it anymore. but wat else can i do? crying? hell no. yang ade skang cume pride. tu satuuu je yg tinggal. putting aside my pride is equally same for me to go naked around. i'd rather get a head shot. im just extremely tired of all this drama. i don wanna end up being an angry woman. i wanna know wat the hell is going on between us. but i cant. im juz too disappointed. i think wats best for now is juz too hold my speech. sobs.


5. i've been a pain in the ass for my parents. hah! seriously. they were lunatic as hell. marah gile towards me. haha! they treated me as if im a baby. nak wat cmne beb? susaaaah! kne solex beb! da tua bangke kot! haihhhhhhhhhhhhhh


well thats it. later alligator. muax!~