piece of scrap

- Friday, March 4, 2011

Its a bright sunny delicious day in Kuantan and I am craving for sushi!
There's nothing I'd rather do than call up my boyfriend or fox fleet and spend the day missioning sit at home all day watching series's, facebooking and wondering what on earth I am going to do with the rest of my life since I screwed it up so royally.

I take a deep breathe and realize its just the hunger and dehydration talking ( I should probably start eating again at some point). I open my metaphorical eyes and realize that all those backs I have seen leaving my life lately are all for a reason. Life moves in cycles (again this may be the hunger talking but go with me) .

I do recall getting furious with people last year and early this year because of what I considered ignorance and disregard for the world at large or in layman's terms "stupidity". It was the same time period except a different group of people (cycles; possibly due to my lack of censorship and tendency to run my mouth).


But what does it all mean... It means that I get sick and tired of the same mundane people who don't understand me or how my brain works. I get sick of people trying to psycho-analyze me instead of paying attention to the true message behind my actions. So I bolt. I get furious and then I make them angry so they will run away. Like a scientist with a bunch of rats. I hypothesize, experiment and conclude.

But the silver lining on all of the above rubbish is that I learn all the time! I love to learn new things (ranging from the frivolous to the fruitful) and my mind is open to the lessons life is trying so to teach me. I listen to my almighty creator as he tries to speak to me through the universe. I take note of his message and I learn.

There are also people out there who have gone against my hypothesis. The people who I thought I could send packing but instead they saw right through my little experiment and accepted me for my silliness. Its also provided me with the brooding anguish needed to be a creative individual. So I will take this negative energy and turn it into a beautiful piece of writing, a sketch in tumblr, a devils way of spending money or a plan to redecorate.

You may think "uhm alright some one is losing it". But thats just the thing about me. I used to be comfortable in my madness then , for a while, I detested it and try to mask my "craziness" because it made others uncomfortable. I have nothing to lose now ( I have lost all that could be lost from saying this 'stuff' already). This is me, I am happy and comfortable with my "ness".

OK who else is loving how mystical I am sounding right now? Its all this positivity and zest for life! I am ready for the world! If this is your best shot then you best try harder because I got this big powerful dude on my side and when we bond (in prayer) its like the biggest love you can ever imagine! (Oh how i wish this is true). Thats right world come and get some!

i think thats it fer tonite. enuff of my silliness, dizziness, tingtong-ness and pujah-ness. haha! i dont even understand wat the heck am i writing about.im losing it rite now. talking bout sanity huh? just a piece of scrap from me

super love her style! i am so getting a new pair of pants and peep toe heels!


bubye=)



1 comments:



MIXED MINDS said...

love her style too! :)


xx

March 12, 2011 at 4:21 AM

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