the ugly duckling story

2013 RESOLUTION


1. saves up money. monthly rm2000 (exception to january 2013)

2. join any class. buatla ape ape asalkan isi masa lapang. im thinking hard on piano class or kickboxing class. *kes tepengaruh tgk real steel*

3. DO NOT jalan jalan oversea. saves up for 2014 trip. cuti cuti malaysia sahaja memandangkan dalam usaha menyimpan duit. water rafting for a start. or maybe kinabalu again. i miss the scenery up there.

4. by 2014 --> harus berada di kerusi client. MY GOAL.

5. get myself MY OWN TIFFANY.

6. get myself MY OWN BURBERRY. 2012 da bejaye mendapatkan GUCCI. yeayyy! i m sooo proud of myself.

7. get myself MY OWN SKII.

8. menjaga maruah diri dgn lebih istiqamah.

semalam aku da tender resignation letter. i've served Asturi Metal Builders for 2years 6months. i've gained a lot of experience in oil and gas. still i dont think its enough for me. oil n gas is very huge. static, structure, platform, jacket, piping, e&i, offshore hook up, commissioning yg aku pon smpai skang tak paham paham. the challenge working in Asturi? u have to be an all rounder. inspection, procedures, welding, wps, wqt, calibration, qualification all sorts and what not. u have to do everything. at first confirm la akan whining n all. leteh. keje mcm org gile. kne maki tu normal dah. sampai nanges pon ade sbbr ase diri ni da bodoh sgt2. busy ya ampun. balik malam. ot manjang. sabtu ahad keje. u have no life. ur work is ur life......... but somehow in the end i feel very glad coz the result is very fruitfull. my 2years experience is equal to 5 years experience of some people.


i've learnt a lot. i've got two bosses whom i treat as my abang long and abang abang long. whenever i wanna cry konpom cari abang long jugak. i even went to search fenomena 30 tahun concert with my boss. cool kan? well, they've been good to me. susah da nk jumpe bos mcm ni. kne maki pon aku dengar je la. sbb mereka kan org org tua. haruslah menghormati org kertu ni. even after tender resignation letter nanges kot. huaaaa. i handled two big packages totalling 35 vessels for KPOC and SOGT project. i did my own WPS/PQR. sampai buruk muke kne effect welding. i did inspection with my inspectors. i have 7 inspectors to help me. thank you guys! im nothing without you all. n yes. i am the only woman in my department who works just as the same as the guys. leteh like hell but lovin it!


so bile project da 80% siap. ape lagi? lets update the resume! huahua. actually saje je tekinja kinja excited nk test market. sbb byk resume anta tru email tidak dilayan, so i decided to go for a walk in interview. minimum 5YEARS EXPERIENCE. gile tak? ingat tak dapat. sbb yg datang tu ya rabbi banyak sgt sgt. beratus ratus org. dtg interview at 830am. tapi kne tunggu until 4pm baru name kne panggil. bile kne interview tu i explained my work experiences in Asturi. interview tu sgt sgt impressed by my detail description. after all im a woman n i managed to do what the men do. kembang sket sket la kan? kui3


so after process nego gaji n a lot of sabar since mmhe punye procedure nk hire org is very strict...dapat jugak la position source inspection coordinator. wat the? i dunno wat is that. hentam je la. but then tanye la jugak kawan2 what is the job scope. wallaaaah! sgt pengsan. its like u have to know a lot. from a to z kuasa 4. no more vessel. vessel tu keciiiiik je besar kismis ketak atas platform. so yeah. im building a platform. for exxon mobil in teluk platform project. my new company is MMHE. lame kot apply nk mintak keje. tp tak layan. biadaaap sgt. huhu. alhamdulillah dapat jugak. n im smiling ear to ear as im writing this post. i dont wanna think on the pressure im gonna face in future. let it be. keje je dlu. insyallah bole buat. the most significant thing is BE A FAST LEARNER.


so here you are

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vessels


TO


ok nampak kecik je gamba ni. i know......haha. sume vessel column bagai yg aku buat skang ni susun mcm maen uno stacko jek atas platform ni nnt. ngihihihihi

FINALLY IM GONNA BUILD A PLATFORM! those static, structure, platform, jacket, piping, e&i, offshore hook up, commissioning?? ITU SEMUA KENE TAHU!!! DREAMS CAME TRUE!! ghahahah! more pressure. more depression. more late nite work. more passion. more learning.


pi.es: still going to be the only female engineer in my new department. *pengsan*

The paradox or our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less. We buy more, but we enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch tv too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We’ve added years to life not life to years. We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We’ve done larger things, but not better things. We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We’ve conquered atom but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce. Fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

Remember, to spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone, who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent. Remember, to say “I love you” to your partner and your loved ones. But most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person might not be there again. Give time to love. Spread the love!~

i was sexually harassed. yep. physically harassed. i am irritated and upset. i didnt know what to do. that ungka harassed me three times. at first i thought he didnt meant what he did. then comes the second time. i was mute. i didnt know what exactly should i react. i was confused. distraught. disturbed! and then i made a decision to face him if he tried anything on me. yep. this ungka never learn the word respect women! the third time, i was furious and i confront him. i told him not to bug me anymore. or i'll spill the beans to the management. and so yes i did. i told my bosses. i cudnt help my tears came falling down. i cried hard. i was molested. come on dude! respect women la bodoh! and so...he was being sacked from the company. in your face ungka! bodoh punye orang. this is the price u have to pay. never mess with women. we have dignity. treat women as the way u want your mother and siblings to be treated!

and so im in peace. skang bole keje balik malam! amin!